This Thanksgiving


This will be the first Thanksgiving– the first holiday– without my father. It will be hard. But still, I will be thankful. I try to live my life with gratitude, and have many things to be thankful for each and every day. As hard as my father’s loss is to bear, God gave us many gifts the last few months of his life. This year, I will be most thankful for those.

I am thankful that God brought me ┬áback home when he did– so that I could spend time with my dad and he could spend time with my Muffin while he was still healthy.

I am thankful that as shocking as it was, it all happened rather quickly. My father would not have wanted to linger in a state where he could not live his life as he always did.

I am thankful that even though the doctor initially told us he’d have “a day or two” he survived almost a week. That week gave us the time we needed to bring him home.

I am thankful for Hospice. They made it possible for my dad to spend his last days at home.

I am thankful that so many who loved him got to say goodbye and he left this world knowing how much he was loved.

I am thankful that he was not afraid or in pain.

I am thankful that for forty two years of my life, I had the very best dad a girl could ask for.

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  1. Helene says:

    Happy Thanksgiving, Kell!!! Love to Greg and Muffin-extraordinaire and especially to you and your mom and sisters. They don’t know me but I feel like I know THEM. Holidays will be the hardest but you will make it through. John was coughing the other day and I told him that if he died right now, every holiday season from here to the end of my time, would be marred by the memory of his untimely death! And that people should NOT be allowed to take their last breath anytime past Halloween. And then I thought of you guys. I suppose it really doesn’t matter when, it more matters how. And it sounds like your dad had the best send-off anyone could have ever hoped to have so if, God FORBID, John should join your dad around a holiday (not this one because that would be cutting it kind of close)? I hope it’s after he’s surrounded by family and friends who love him, without pain, without fear and with the knowledge of how much he is loved. I’ll still be pissed that it’s near my favorite season, but I will also have those things to be grateful for.

    I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!


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